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24/10/2019

am i enough?

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I’m not good enough. 
What I do isn’t good enough.
I'm a perfectionist.
It has to be perfect.
I have to be perfect.
I’m not good enough.
What if I could be good enough.
Maybe I am good enough.
Maybe what I do is good enough.
What I do is good enough.
I am good enough.
I AM ENOUGH.

Same coin, two sides.

Always feeling like you’re not good enough.

Doing more. Trying to BE more. Working harder, longer. Pushing yourself. Pushing others. Relentless pursuit of the goal. Over achieving. Accolades. Praise. Recognition. Promotion. Momentary satisfaction. It's never enough.

Still feeling you’re not good enough.

Still believing you’re not good enough.

Money, possessions, holidays, homes, cars, body perfection, insta-perfect lives.

I’m not good enough.

Self-restriction. Over exercise. Health obsession. Unrelenting standards. Perfectionism.

Still I’m not good enough.

Flip the coin over.

Moving from one thing to another. Never feeling like it’s the right thing.
Always doing the wrong thing. Second guessing. Doubting decisions. Seeking reassurance. Needing external validation.

Trying to please the emotionally absent parent, trying even harder, still not feeling recognised, not seen, not heard, no voice, not loved.

How could I ever be enough.

You learnt how to love from your parents. They learned from their parents. And they learned from theirs.

You followed the roles assigned by your family.

Good daughter
Dutiful wife
Supportive sister
Helpful grandchild

The brainy one
The creative one
The naughty one
The useless one
The good one
The difficult one
The wild one
The stupid one
The troubled one

What is my identity, who am I.

You had to be
Quiet
Good
Seen and not heard
Compliant
Obedient
Unquestioning
Different
Clever
In order to be loved

I am trying. Am I still not enough.

I don’t know who I am
Can I ever be enough
Am I enough to be loved

Pain, confusion, frustration, anger, sadness, grief. 

Who should I be. 
I don't know who I am.
Who do I even want to be.

Sorrow. Wounds that rip open the heart with every teardrop. 
Desire for change, unchartered waters.
A siren's call onto the rocks of your life.
Beliefs breaking apart, revealing their bounty.
Lights from the shore, revealing the shadows.
Exploring magical places long forgotten.

Hope, possibilities, nourishment, trust, choices.

It matters not who others think I am.
I am not their labels.

Whoever I am. I choose me.
I don't need to be perfect.
I only need to be me.

I remember now.

I've always been enough.
I am enough.
I am me.
I am trust.
I am hope.
I am self love.

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