I have something really important to tell you.
I love you. All of you. There is no part of you, inside or out, that I cannot love. And that will not change. I offer my love freely and without condition because I accept all of you.
If it feels difficult to accept my unconditional love then you're not alone. I know how that feels, I haven't always found it easy to be loved.
I remember as a child and young teen, the times when my Mum tried to comfort me, to offer her love. I felt so raw and vulnerable. I felt so much shame that she saw me like that, that she witnessed my pain. I felt like such a failure. All I wanted was to feel normal, for it to go away.
So I rejected her love, pushed her away. And as I did, I learned to reject my own love too.
For decades after, love was elusive in my life. Feast or famine, deluge or drought. One minute there, the next gone.
Years of therapy, workshops, spiritual festivals, working on my stuff, releasing the triggers from early childhood trauma. Changing how I felt about myself, transforming the beliefs that used to hold me in self criticism, judgement and disdain.
I was genuinely happy with who I was, inside and out, I looked different and felt different. My connection to source deepened and as it did my happiness and contentment increased beyond measure. My tribe were there to support me. I allowed myself to receive their love. And I loved them in return.
Yet, when it came to my intimate relationships, love felt like a fickle friend.
When love was there. Confusing, bewildering, unnerving. I couldn't trust myself around love. I didn't feel that I deserved to be loved as I was, believing that love was conditional, on me being good enough, thin enough, ...enough. The list was endless.
And when love wasn't there. Believing exactly the same. Feeling worse and yet feeling relieved. See, I was right after all, I told myself; you don't deserve to be loved.
Then one ordinary day, my truth was revealed.
Love was always there.
I'd been searching in all the wrong places. I'd been looking for someone to love me the way my Mum had loved me, to cherish and care for me, to make me feel safe and secure again. To witness my pain and vulnerability, fully accepting these parts of me, to welcome the whole of me, and offer unconditional love.
All those years, looking outside of me, searching for someone to love me enough, when all along it was right there, inside of me.
I have the answer.
I am love.
And love is me.
It is the whole of me and each separate part of me.
It doesn't matter who I'm with or how much they love me.
All that ever matters is that I love me.
In relationships, I am the one to make me feel safe and secure when I'm scared of getting hurt. I am there to cherish and care for me, when I'm feeling under pressure or alone. I am the one to witness my pain in all its vulnerability when I reveal who I am to another. I am the one to accept me as me, regardless of what I've said or done or believe. I am the one to offer unconditional love when I get scared and fall back into old ways.
Love is always with me and within me.
I am love and love is me. And that's all I need remember.
This is my Self Love story and I humbly share it with you, so you can see me and know my truth. It is an honour to reveal this part of myself to you.
Thank you for receiving me as I receive you.
On this most glorious day of Self Love, I offer you my deepest love and my appreciation for all you bring to my life and our bountiful ever-giving universe.
Thank you for being my inspiration as I continue to serve you.
Today, and every day, I invite you write your own love story through embracing the deepest of loves, Self Love, for it is always truly you.
If even a teeny, weeny part of this resonates and you want to release the past, if you want to fully accept all you truly are and embrace a life of limit-less Self Love... then let's work together.
This is your time to release the past and change your future. This is your time to step into your power, to acknowledge how amazing you really are. This is your time to fully LOVE YOU!
I’m here to support you, I'm right by your side. You deserve to live your best life, one filled with unconditional love and acceptance for yourself.
My contact details are below, drop me a message to arrange a time to chat about where you are and where you want to be.
From my heart to yours, from my soul to yours, I can't wait to welcome you home!
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